DIalouge between Peter Rivers and two bums outside a bustop about life, how they wish pepole were (where have all the freaks gone?) not really but a bit. (where was he yetserday...dont worry...there was a perfectly good explanation...and some great pondficton and whatnot: (totally not percrastnation from cleaning my room todayyy)
Wednesday, July 24, 2024
Monday, July 22, 2024
Creative juiscds comic strip issue 2: 7/22/24
Vent about adhd lack of productivity comic strip about how people make art so fast and well and focous so easily
Friday, July 19, 2024
SHORT STORY COLLECTION: SHORT STORIES i WRITE IN MY TWNETIES: (ANTTHOGIE/SHORT STORY COLLECTION i WANT TO START FOR NOW, FOR THE REEVATION THEME, FOR JOR FOR THE FUTURE FOR IDEAL FUTURE FOR FANSTEIS FOR, FURTURE HERE ON EARTH FOR DIFFRENT WORLDS, FOR LOVE, FOR HEALING, FOR LOYRAITY, FOR REVENGE FOR ART, FOR DYING, FOR DARING, -EACH MONTH i WRITE A NEW ANTHAGLY -COLLECTION OF SHORT STORIES BASED ON A NEW THEME THE WORD EEVERY WEEK SHORT STORY EER GOOGLE
SHORT STORY'S FOR THE REVEATION: EVRTHING IN THIS BLOG PAGE
Shoet story colllections I worte in my teen years: FRAGMANTS (My Adoeoencnt works)Creative writing archives elemeratry-high school 2014-2023 - Google Drive
Fragments: https://drive.google.com/drive/u/1/my-drive
I WANT TO WRITE ONCE COLLECTION OF TEN SHORT STORIES A MONTH -EACH TEN PAGES LONG -ONE PER WEEK. FOR MY OWN SELF RUN -MAGAZINE -YET TO BE STARTED (KILLER QUEENS CLUB PERHAPHS ASSOSATED)NOT YET TIED IN:
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1bd-O4hPnXWCDYFNXU3IR3KLkBdEEePXO?usp=drive_link
REAGRLESS I PLAN TO AND i WILL -WRITE SHORT STORIES FOR THIS GENRATION, FOR THIS AGE -BEYOND THE RELM OF THE TEHETRIAL AND TERMOAL RELM OF THE INTERNET, I WILL WRITE AD THE GREAT ILLIMTAIORS ONCE DID -STORIES FOR HUMANITY TO CAPTURE OUR RACE AS WE ARE, TELL OUR STORIES MY OWN, WITH COMPASSION AND POSTERITY -
ANALOGY'S ONCE A MONTH, FOR MY TWENTIES:
GETTING MY SHORT STORY/WRITING PORTFOLIOS IN ORDER (ALL IN ONE PLACE/TRUE COLLECTION CURATION OF MY BEST -GREAT WORK ORGANIZED IN ONE PLACE-)
Plan to structure my future short story analogies -as thematic works of their own wiuth one thematic through running through all ten or so separate sand along short stories, all of them entirely different short stories, stand-alone, yet, the themes, ideas, even esthetics and sometimes easter eggs, and even multiverse their set in are the same all tied together:
These themes are for short story Angthtgies are:
1. Death
2. Revenge
3. First Love
4. Betrayal
5. Power
6. Sex
7. Time
8. Madness
9. Fanstay
10. Revalution
11. Sickness
12. Marrige
13. Transformation
14. Time travel.
15. Unexpected
16. Silly
17. Childish
18. Old
19. Desprartion
20. Pain
21. Loss
22. Chosen
23. Scandal
24. Special
25. Perspective
Here is some of the short story themes for my future,
Schedule: for future writing short stories
write one short story a week
Tuesday, July 16, 2024
CREATIVE JUSICES Issue 2: LOVE LETTER PROJCT ME X PETER RIVERS FINALLY HERE!!!!! (new series) I WANT TO GUSH i FINALLY WORKED OUT HOW TO PULL OF THE PLESURE /LOVE LETTRS SIDE PROJECT PROJECT! CALLED LOVE LETTERS between me and hippie boyfreind PETER RIVERS -real life arg fanfiction /fanatsy comeple and utter fanstsy seprate from teh cenrtum verdtie plot, all of my sexual, romatic, historical, and life fansties put into this storys in the form of love letetrs (but also in teh form of short stories, comics, and real life args so just about whatever I want -putting all the indudgence into this projct fully decided with a main charcnter that is a shamless self insert of myself, the best versions of it as many stories do have :)
Project: SOME MAY SAY IM A DREAMER (SHAMELESS Lover PART ONE: LOVE LETTERS 2024-2025)
AFter some months of back and fourth new creative juices update! (gonna maybe make a comic about it) But remember creative juices as a conic /blog is about...whatever I do in my creative life that doesn't have to do with my novel specificity because I have a blog for that
- LF novel blog is for lf updates, stuff, and venting
-Goofball blog is for my personal life
-Gonzo is for politics that is too harsh (n theory)
-and maybe ill make more blogs for other stuff down the line--
(whos to say as a blogger I'm not orgnnzied 000)
But yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhh I'm blogging the blogs babyyyy (for me not the world don't read them hsss)
In the background of lost of other stuff in life trying to finish my book and pack up my room (really should get round to that today/later this week before the 21st move out day all that crap I should not have put off everything as Much as I have classic Eli move, procraanating, putting everything off till the final hour---- but I was like, had put off my important thing my frustration with the fact (leftover from therapy and some old nagging unresolved personal demons, regarding our modern lack of place for playing pretdn, imagination in adult life -feeling increasingly frustrated and even a bit ussuless with that, but also like I've lost my imagination even if I know it's still naturally much more pronounced then most people, when I spent time with all walks of life, and...I'm chiefly concerned in life with the sharpness and pureness of my imagination and, doing drugs, won't help -making my imagination less pure but to test it, it often seems to be waiting -and that scares me, like a fairy losing her ability to fly the longer she spends away from fairyland, along with the world at large's pathologizing of imagination as "Not being able to accept reality" and only imagination as a beautiful sacred thing, many people only view it as, a mentally ill thing or, as something to avoid to stay in the real world in real life only to indulge in to be productive for a job, or to tell stories with the structure to be published, never to play pretend or tell stories for their own sake, for their own sake of being in that other world like we were kids, and much more layers in between that surely many people still do -with d/d, roleplaying online sexual and otherwise, LARPING, and other things but...the rules that cme with that, arent always what you want, the story structure, sometimes you want something more free form...and those forms of escpasim its great their becoming more mainstream and accepted somewhat, but they also involve other people and I've trie getting into D/D and (lapring th jurry is still out) but not always for me. Much more into the down to earth, free form, like an improv, thing, I used to do improv when I was a kid for years was...truly one of the best things I ever did in school, had mixed experiences acting in school plays though I did it for decades on and off, did impoorv only once for one semester, great time no notes denfitly wanted to do it again. Pepole say its unhealthy to "blurr the lines between peoples real and fanstsy lives" But I realize recently for all the trouble I had as an autistic kid growing up I was most happy when I was with my freinds playing pretnd, in our own little worlds, making our own little projects like at Rubys house on our conasnat sleep overs we wouldn't just play sports, or video games, or play barbies like other kids, we had huge imanations, and lots of enegery so me and ruby and feilxs some of the best time in my childhood with them and my other childhood best freinds, (as many kids can probably say) would bounce around Brooklyn and play pretend, make projects like we would film a fake cooking show all afternoon, pretnd it was a real show, make the name and the backstory, we would make fake movies, and plays and pretsend we were different people and go in public like drag and try and get into night clubs where her dad worked, it was most fun when we were telling our own stories, we knew it wasn't real, but that didn't matter -same with Nate, and jhon mayer, Sasha, Avrey huggins, Behnhiman, and I had other freinds at the time, lots more I probably cant remember, all we did was play pretnd, costumes nartives, real life backdrops, high stakes, all the time, go on playdates but really we were going on a secret spy mission or something probably crazier then that with real life props and stuff I would make -if they broke the emersion if they wanted to stop playing pretnd I would get sad.
Point is, as I recall in a series of many refelctions from healing my inner childhood, childhood treaumas, reflections, unhappy and happy memoeis as many young men do when they hit their twnties inthat phase of rather raw, pitoval development, reflecting upon their life laid upon itself up to that point
I can't deny the balance (aiming for a heathy balance) but a strong balance, an even one, for a proud and not high, but a functiong, independent auststic, very very right brain, creatively endowed individual like myself escpially now, coming into my own in the world, as a writer, an author my own person, claimg my own story -knowing how cut through the creative writing industry is, and how little I truly want to enehgage with it besides getting my stories out there, fighting out how much or how little I want to carve out my own space, without selling out my own image for fame, learning from metors while yet, not allowing myself to be written off and ocndenced to my talent ignored, as I have been yet by men who are not as they pervice in the lit world,---the point is I recognized that for up and coming scrappy writers nodays, with chat gbt, wanting to make a living not with my parents, for real, but not on writing alone, in real life, shit is dawntibg with my anixty wanting to take things seriously I cant get distracted from the work compare myself to others be bogged down by tgeh newy flashy, overwhelming reaklityies of the publishing industry that will come and go, especially in this raw stage before I FIND REAL counties online or irl in other writes who can look out for me, becuase now I reakky am doing it and have done it all on my own, with a lot more set backs then most people and no one can take that from me. So fansties, I have em, most unexplored mosyt books (not mine) coming out seem to just be those fansies alone, sexual, romantic, so clearly they can be scuefull ---but you don't care about that
you just want to write them, comepclet and utter, unbridled fansties, ur imagination
silly, cringy ideas, romantic sexual fansies of all sorts coming into your life more and more, shameless no mater how crineg they amy be to others to the subcniosu shame asshole in ur head personifed by the asshole doctor, or your father telling you to not write these things for years despite the fact u intent to never show them to anyone, you ha
you for some time have had he desire the passionate desire
to alongside lying flat witch is a comedy /drama so---not even fully serious --
But,
I needs, an active and full fantasy life, along side my normal life, I realize that's one of the main things I been missing, I need like meditation to rebuild my imgantion, through various methods, one way is just setting aside times of day to daydream, with no nagging "I should be being prodtive rn" thoughts making me feel ussuful for ut, the daydreams are the devilne my religion like medataing or preying need to start thing of it that way
Looking forward to dreaming as much as the day, if I learn to lucid dream, take control of my dre3ams in the joy of them, and dream about things in the luccid dreams in the long list of fanssies I have had been wanting to explore but repressing and holding back -like dreamhouse, dreamlife, dreamlovers, timetrsavl fansies ideal life in 60s, in 70s, in 90s, roadtrips, best life on the high seas, dandy in victoran times, romantic bucket list, dream wedding, best ways to survive the end of the world but with love, dream...bookstore, what if I woke up with the superpower to help people fall in love, what if I woke up with the power to time travel but only in my dreams, (only to rose teinted versions of the past becuase fansteis and also fuck boomers) what if I decided to pit on a Woodstock style concert today but, actylly festival of art and other stuff to...to raise money for a bunch of stuff incuduling paslstine, biggest concert in world history, with guy who is son of billnar musical rengodade, what if they make one of my books into a movie and itgs an rollercoaster -but overall a really good experience, basically fish out of water what if right now, how my life is, I get skyrocketed to fake lying flat becomes an overnight hit and sod eos ist film, and so many more
But also since when I was a akid I did pretty conasnat act outs and it was fun, heathy and
But
Sunday, July 7, 2024
Daily Comic: FIRST ISSUE: Wired times, Creative minds. (desprate for creative slvataion in the empty chaos...)
Topics I can/want to write about in my Creatuve Juices comic;
Anxiety I have
Cruises /being in love
Processing complicated feeling in my real life
Putting myself in Centrum Cetuide multiverse
Telling fun self contained stories (same as prompts)
Politics , observations about the world as they come up
To vent when I have no one else to talk to
Famastsies /wish fulfillment of life experiences I wish I had/want
Painful gross -extremely taboo feelings ur not meant to express-heathy provide-ish place to express them when they come up
Time travel Adventures, sex scenes ideal future home life -ideal romance ideal future career, cool idea for stuff -
Depicting /satrfrical versions of my childhood /trauma /fanatical versions of real life events to process them
The point of thease comics:
1. One issue weekly at least:
2. whatever I want/no cenedoring no bullshit (my anatehtic self to have a stream of conssunsious about my life, my creative concsuouniss, my experinces comcbinding my comics and creative writing abalities to help process the weird world arround me -re disover my creative joy -voice but also way to process my thoyghts, feelings that arent all negetive but are honnest and true to myself not being ceneoed in all their auatsyic. freaky, esortritic, genuine, brillant, sad, lonly, imagnattive, oversent world -the world as I see it.
The comoc Plot: is essionally just my own weekly comic strip -all things:
A comic diary for myself to process my own creative furstation, wurh my own creative process/inbity to write my book/random thoughts I have about myself, 2024 life, lonlyniss, and just things that come up eveyday interactions with anoying pepole, with our elections, fears, and anything in my life/modern life that I have no idea how to really put into words but want to vent/draw about nevertherless...
-Go on advebtures with the "Imagnation crew" to get new ideas/expand my imagnatiion an expanasive, place to let my imagnation run free/explore all fun ideas I have all the time putting myslf in them as funny self inserts as the writer/or not in them at all
-Poltical comic/cartoon venting my own poltical opionions
-random songs, poetery, (stuff like bucket lists,band names or song names,lists lists and more lists, list of free stuff in nyc)
-Fansises, sceens of doemstic bliss with my future husband, boyfriend with a van, all the best possible future sinsatiors (soctatic dilouges with the charchters in the "creative crew" about stuff-
-Time travel avdntures, advantures into fiucional relms
-legit ideas for invetions, night clubs, funny relgious/skits, solutions to problems,my type in men, why I dont want a job, why I dont want to live in the 2020's, what kind of freinds I want ideal freinds, best movies to watch when depressed...
just bullshit I feel like complaning about-even if im just bored at school
Main Charchters:
Creative Juices comic strip:
Elijah Brahmi aka me -fictional version of me -highened, every one of my traits how I see myself and how eveyrone else does probbaly just exxtrrtaed--to a comeditc, cartoony degree, a future great athor, and artisst right now, just a very burnt out, frustated disorgnized, 20 year old college student feeling constanly out fo place;
// struggling to write his book, have anyone in his lfie undertsand him, feel at peace, or translate his chaotic, totally unglamrous "mental situtaion" into a creative process or creative work, the world lacks all creativity, creativity and imagnation are not childnissh he's always the most creatve person in every room he's in and but he feels like he's on another planet, tired and alone lost in space- he knows he's detsinet, he has to make great cretaive work its in his blood otherwise what the hell is he doing? but...he cant do it all on his own...all great creatuve minds had great collbatriors but...for now he is on his own, in his own mind, in real life...he really is on his own, in hiw fucked up, chaotic mind, but he's at peace with teh chaos, but, what if...he wasnt on his own. What if he had a creative crew with him//
Creative Crew:
The Brainslator (my newly hired brain transaltor): Basicly my brain is too complcated, too overwelming I have too many mentall illnesses, nervodgivernce, and learning dislblities -you know being more aware ive gotten better at asking for help and mangiong them but -its still alot, oftenj too much and get get in the way instead of inhance the holy creative process -I have appointed a Translator, a middle man- for my brain to help smoth along comucations between me (the artsist) and my brain, spifficly the very complcated menatl sistaion always throwing me arround and leaving me at its whims, never quite being able to be cpatain of my own ship, for comuncation,peace, order between an arysist and his own "disordered" brain however romanastosoied they may have been, while trying to make great work and have peace in ones life can be quite, a painfull and frustrating game of talaphone. He is a most trusted translator of brains to tragic artsists, has been a Brainslator for some of teh greats, Franz Kafka, Camus, Oscar Wilde, and many others to verious levels of sucuess. The Brainslator with the personoty of Martain Freeman, a very cheeky rather logical wholesome britush doctor -weraring a little blue suit and basball hat. With a little TV screen the brainslator.
Lucien: same CHARCHTER Oscar Wilde like dandy to personify my conscience (best impusises most reasonless to make good choices both moral and creative for myself my own life and other people)
Duncan: one of the Centrum VERDIE earth wizards 🧙 who decides to become a mentor to me (as many are in those books to defy the Druid council) to teach my Eriuim the magic on pure imagination to use their magic for my own creative and personal fulfillment both in the comic and in my own (real dream/mediatoon retuals in accord ends with my own Centruim relgion) teaching me to use the amulet 🧿 and spells 🪄 to use my dreams to time travel /basicly lucid dreams to dream at will both at night and during the day
His other spells help expand my imagination for my own desires helping to remind me of the Devine holy mission of true creative people with true imagination by the centrum verdie (see other mythofy blog about that I already know about that that’s it’s a holy mission whoever I get unmovtared to write or even be creative for my own sake with fanfictions imaging stories for escapism Decuxak helps to remind me to do so to escape trauma shouldn’t be somthing im ashamed of and sometimes to get over ptsd and trauma intrusive fhtjogjts ect I should simply wait for the thoughts to pass but escapist thoughts are the best way to deal with it not self harming /thkughts refoucing on the horrific traumatic flashbacks Hense why therapy wasn’t good to continue
Duncan’s reminds you of ur own holy Devine perpuse not just “being a writer” but of of many but a dying breed of true creative being of the ancidemf magic order that still have the level of Eruim in you that you do that create discord in the would but it actually makes u special to have such a high level of imagination and those u who truly do as well even though truly not as many do as may think they do are a dying beeee and they will save the world
Publishing is just the relms methods for getting ur magical world out there to the masses
Having ur own religion
Having Duncan being a Druid in that religion reminding u the spells teaching that imagination itself is holy it is an ancient art that can and will save the world and your one of the last people on earth with as powerful an imagination as you have
(RIVER ideal male best friend
Lola ideal female or nonbinary best friend (best I mean close intimate best friend)
AND MYRON) ideal boyfriend
And Some friends in an other lovers in the future ideal polycule who are all ideal weather I meet them at SUNY new Paltz or simply later I. Life they are everything I want in friends and lovers from the friends /lovers guide and more detailed the company I would want in real life when in my creative throws
THE CHARCHTERS
Creative Juices Issue 1. MAGIC IMAGNATION INTERVENTION :
The chosen one /elijah the prophet u asshole!!!!
Some backstory how did we get here
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